It was a hard week. We were only into the third week of January and I could already feel the tension building up. It was full of emotion, reflection and self-evaluation. I try my absolute best to push through even when my heart is a little sunk. I almost gave up. I had just received news that one of my dear friend’s husband passed away leaving two little ones. I was also processing some business correspondence that was a bit taxing on my soul (to say the least). Being a solopreneur can be so rewarding, but when you don’t have someone to, on occasion, chat with in the other cubicle or have the many water station congregation or even someone to report daily, it can be quite lonely. That’s how I felt. Lonely. My best friend tried to cheer me up with her chipper self; Victor attempted to do little things here and there to make me smile, and my mom just embraced me. What got me through and what keeps me going is the ability to choose joy over fear. I felt the anxiety trying to eat me up, but I chose to remain grounded in something bigger than all my fears. JAH and his fierce love never fail. I was reminded to choose to be grateful. I’m grateful for the fact that I can smile at my husband and hug him. Grateful for the sleep I get each night even with Victor’s relentless nasal songs. Grateful to be able to just breath in the February crisp air. For me, gratefulness leads to joy. Joy leads to a new attitude. So here’s to life and to everything it brings. I choose joy. I choose love.

On another note, I’m so looking forward to our ten years awaited family trip to Tahoe. Given my parents’ line of work, it’s hard for them and me to take off a weekend. Nevertheless, I can’t wait and to see my little brother too for his twenty-something birthday. I also can’t wait to photograph snow! Oh, the things to be grateful for!

Pictures from a trip to Calistoga last year…Just because!

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